A to Z of pain…
All the time, incessant throbbing and stabbing, it never stops
Bones that ache, joints that seize, bolts that burn
Constant pain, constant tension, constant hindrance of movement
Distraction the constant temptation, a supposed help turned curse
Earth the prison for me and the pain
Finding new things everyday that I can’t do, Feeling sad, frustrating and helpless
God the only One who can help, sustaining yet not releasing.
Hopelessness the only thing that rises without effort
Inside out, if only what is injured could be exposed
Jail for the emotions, prison for the mind, rehabilitation needed for the mind.
Kneeling and pleading for intervention, but resigned to living in detention
Longing for death, though convicted I should have more sticking power
Muscles that tense involuntarily, stressed and shaking another migraine in the making
Numbness the best I can hope for, but normally much more raw
Only One can help, only one to blame.
Pins and needles, fire like ice, the tormenting nerves
Quietness virtually impossible, pain & thoughts the burglars of peace.
Rest an allusive goal, hidden in One place alone
Sinking further into an all encompassing sea
Tired, from dawn to dusk, the depleted reserve ever decreasing.
Unprepared for each new day, starting worse than the one before
Vexed as to when it will end, likely never
When will it end, where will it lead, what do I need to learn?
Xray vision needed to see the damage, no one knowing what urges within.
Yearning for release from the prison, yet knowing God knows best
Zebra the only colour scheme that fits: the black bleakness and the white hope.